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In this time of sorrow, I take comfort in knowing he is in a happier, beautiful place where he is free from any pain, fear, illness, and disease. My heart aches every day he is gone. The love and life he left behind will always be remembered and honored. I never could have asked for a better companion and I feel so greatful to have had him in my life. The greatest lesson I learned from him was to value the gift of life and to cherish every moment you have with someone you love, never take it forgranted.

Death can only make love stronger and one day I will reunite with him and I will have the happieness I felt with him once again. I will love and miss him always. It's still hard for me, sometimes I dream of him. The dreams are not sad but not happy also. They are dreams of him returning to life like the shot that was suppose to put him to sleep didn't and he came back from the dead but he is sick all over again...I hate those dreams. When he was sick I do have some pictures I took of him but I won't put them up here they are too sad...you can see the sadness and discomfort in his face. I still talk to him every morning I wake up I tell him good morning when I go to sleep I tell him good night just like I always did...
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~blackstarlight17 Apr 20, 2012   Digital Artist
I know the very same pain you feel. Last year on June, shortly after my classes ended, my cat, Salem passed away from Renal Failure :( We didn't even know he had it until we managed to barely scrape just enough money to get him to the vet for a check up, hoping whatever had been wrong with him, wasn't serious, only to learn the worst. We were told he probably had about 3 or less weeks to live with how much weight he lost, how dehydrated he was. So, we chose to end his suffering, having him put to sleep. Strange thing, despite how sad we were, including the vet since they've taken care of him since he had been a kitten, Salem went with grace.
He knew we were helping him, he held on to life just for us, and seeing we were helping him end his pain, he was truly happy. So having him put down was the best for everyone, Salem no longer hurt, though we still hurt, we feel better knowing we did the right thing. Plus, we have so many memories of him to bring us a smile if feeling down whether it was him listening and chattering with us, stealing my things or doing whatever he can to irritate me very much like a little brother. No..he wasn't like a brother, he was my little brother and always will be regardless of what others may say :nod:

So whatever you do, don't ever forget your cat, don't ever let his memory hurt you, instead use it to help yourself get stronger :nod: You never know, he could either be watching over you like a guardian angel, he may even get himself reincarnated just so he could reunite with you again in some form :nod:
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~forgottensoul25 Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you, I'm so sorry of your loss. It is hard to have to put an animal to sleep and when we had to do it, it was an unplanned thing because we thought he would be with us longer and we would decide. Whiskers had been diagnosed with an abdominal tumor before he died and he did lose weight and he was hungry all the time even after he ate. When he was rushed to the emergency room after I saw he was suffering a sezuire, the doctors tried to save him that early morning but he became worse and the doctor ran out of the rom came looking for me and told me they are trying to get him breathing back to normal but it wasn't working and his heart rate kept dropping and that he was about to die any minute. They let me go into the room and when I saw him they were giving him the oxygen mask and the look in his eyes will haunt me forever. They were no longer filled with fear, they became dark and empty and he already looked like he past but he was still clinging to life. Even if I did not put him down he would have just died anyway but I could not allow him to die that way so I asked for them to put him to sleep...I knew that would be the day he would go when I saw him that morning on the floor having that seizure. I read somewhere that in cats that a sudden seizure can be from liver or kidney failure and thats probably what had happened to him.

I never forget him I think of him everyday and I do believe I will see him again in the afterlife. I do think of him as my angel and I don't know if animals can be reincarnated but there can only be one of him but someday I will have another animal in my life because life is just more happier with one I'm sure you know. But no cat can replace him you can never replace an animal that died its not the same. It wouldn't fix the pain of losing him I will always feel that pain but I can always feel some happiness again but he was so special and I could love again but never love any animal more than I did with him.
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~blackstarlight17 Apr 24, 2012   Digital Artist
That was pretty much the same with Salem, though for him, he just knew we would help him, the look he held when he saw that needle, it was like he knew it would end his pain and accepted it. No fight, and even after getting the shot, he tried curling up into a little ball to sleep, struggling to stay awake long enough to complete that little task :happycry:

Salem was really the only cat I've witness pass away in person, though there was another, but he was a stillborn, barely remember him, only enough to know I gave him a name, Patch, and watched my dad bury him in the backyard so not to upset the other newborns and their mother :nod:

And I know what you mean, when i got Salem, I was much younger and he was originally meant to as an effort to replace a cat we had to give away to a friend of my dad's because we couldn't bring her at the time. When we finally got the money and space for a cat, I wanted a black one like Lucky, a girl at first. But no matter how much we tried, no female black cats were available, eventually settling on either a boy or girl black cat, leading up to finding and adopting Salem. Unlike Lucky who was patient, calm, motherly; Salem was a wild child, always getting into things, life never dull with him, no matter how hard you'd try. Instead of replacing Lucky, he made me appreciate her memories more and filled my heart with his own personality. Lucky was like my big sister, while Salem became my little brother due our relationships :nod:
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~forgottensoul25 Apr 24, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Ha I had Whiskers since I was almost 7 and when I was growing up I thought of him as my little brother. It was funny.
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~blackstarlight17 Apr 24, 2012   Digital Artist
Got Salem when I had been 9, so I had him for about 12 years, and even on his final days, he was a maniac ^^; He's stolen my stuff dozens of times from hair ties to peacock feathers, even once took off with my bra, racing through the house with me chasing after him.

Though he's done other things such as breaking out of the house or apartment, forcing me to chase him, usually in my pajamas to get him back in :XD: He even got my mom and I chasing him around the house when he got on the roof, making my mom go on one side, using a hose to hopefully spray him my way to grab and bring him inside. Instead, he ducked and I get nailed in the face with the water :XD: I swore he was rolling around laughing at this :XD:

He also loved chewing on me, mostly my arm, if not he'd stick his claws in my ass to force me to give him my cereal milk if he thinks I'm taking to long ^^;
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~forgottensoul25 Apr 24, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Wow lol he seems like he's really special :lol:
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~blackstarlight17 Apr 24, 2012   Digital Artist
He was to us, Salem was a very intelligent cat to the point you could have a converstation with him, even if it was mostly one sided. Though he would depending respond one way or another :nod:
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~pgenesis Jan 6, 2011  Professional Photographer
He can hear every single word you tell him; keep him alive in your heart and you can be very sure you will see him again...no doubt about it :rose:
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~forgottensoul25 Jan 12, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
I can't wait to see him again!
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~pgenesis Jan 13, 2011  Professional Photographer
Eventually all of us will be at the other side of the mirror...just be patience and enjoy your life in the meanwhile ;)
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